In Illo Tempore
“Love past, never, and immutably lived. An amalgamation of the experience, perceptions, and dreams of my life—consecrated, in illo tempore.”
When I was a very young child, I was violently sexually assaulted. Having experienced this type of trauma at a young age, I have found it difficult to develop and maintain meaningful personal relationships. With a profound lack of trust, I have spent most of my life isolated; Always assuming that only a very small portion of the population was capable of understanding my particular experience, while at the same time, only comprehending my experience through the fragmented thoughts and memory of a child.
My desire to connect with others in a meaningful way is profound, sometimes seemingly impossible, but entirely necessary; In illo tempore is an artistic experimentation of that desire to connect. An expression of time, and the dynamics of perception and experience. They are the salient figures in my life—the ones I love—the thought of them has provided me with great comfort and great pain. They are fires, muses, universes, and hierophanies, and I unapologetically love them, for the reasons that I love them.
Every day there are new stories of trauma, so in the hope of doing something good by telling mine, to recognize those to heal, and curtail the madness of abuse, I have decided to donate any/all of the profits that come from the sales of “In Illo Tempore” to any of the following non-profit organizations.
RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network), YWCA Utah, AAS (American Association of Suicidology), NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness)